It had been 18 months since I had last seen a paycheck. All my savings were gone and my credit card debt was growing.
I was in the midst of a major transformation. I wanted to be happy, fulfilled, and whole in my work and in my life. I wanted not to feel broken anymore. Sadly, I didn’t know what wholeness really was. What I did know was that there was something more, something waiting for me to step into.
New to Unity teachings and New Thought, I had eagerly undertaken affirmative prayer. For 18 months I worked that prayer field, trying to understand the idea that prayer was not asking but activating, that I was not praying to something but praying from something.
For 18 months I practiced activating my abundance, my financial well-being, and my freedom. For 18 months I prayed and prayed, but nothing new was showing up. The bills continued to pile up, the debt continued to grow.
Affirmative prayer is not magic. It is a powerful process of revelation that offers a direct experience of what is possible. As we are changed, our world changes with us.
Desperate, I was applying for the same jobs I had done before and wanted to leave behind, knowing none of them would pay my bills or bring fulfillment. I kept applying anyway. I landed those jobs again and again. Then I would cry and realize I had to say no because they weren’t enough.
Somewhere in the midst of this frustrating cycle, I finally realized what I was doing. I was trying to activate a new understanding while still choosing to live in an old awareness. Fear was blocking my expansion by clinging desperately to what was familiar.
With this insight and a deep and genuine willingness to break free, I again sat in prayer. For the first time in all those 18 months, I actually allowed myself to feel into a new realization of what was possible.
Revelation and Transformation
I will forever remember that powerfully transformative moment. As I said yes, as I was truly willing, I felt the world, the cosmos, my understanding shift. Something within me gave way, and I had a direct experience of wholeness, abundance, and prosperity in a way I never even knew was possible.
My fear evaporated and I stood rock-solid in my faith. I had a surety of just how supported and empowered I was.
Not surprisingly, with this powerful shift in my consciousness, everything around me also shifted and within two weeks, I had a dream job.
Affirmative prayer is not magic. It is a powerful process of revelation that offers a direct experience of what is possible. As we are changed, our world changes with us. I had a direct experience of my divine nature, which then demonstrated in my life. So can you.
Practice regularly. Notice where your choices aren’t in alignment with what you are holding in prayer. Be willing to let go of what you think you know, of who you think you are, and be made new as you access your divine nature.
Excerpted from The Power of Prayer booklet.